Parental Paranoia

Community question: Which of the following scenarios should make me feel guiltier?

Scenario One: Finn crying because I have to leave him at daycare

Reasoning for guilt: Leaving my boy somewhere he obviously doesn’t want to be (well – he’s crying!)   

Scenario Two: Finn crying because he has to come home from daycare

Reasoning for guilt: My company is such a lacking alternative that he’d rather stay at school in the chain link fenced yard with the sun-faded toys than come home with me.

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Parental guilt

Earlier today Finn barged into the bathroom, waving his sippy cup for more juice and caught me inserting a tampon.  I’m sure I’m not the only mother in the world whose son’s seen this but at the time he did give the whole thing a very odd look. Why is that going into mommy there?

I read somewhere that the way the human memory works is that we actually remember every single thing that ever happened to us. The reality is that – even though we don’t know it – we carry every moment of our lives around with us forever.  Our brains are like eternally switched on recording devices. We can’t actively remember it all – the burden would send us screaming mad – but it’s all in there. Every truth of our lives, every single second of trauma from childhood is buried in our minds.  Silent. Unknowingly and constantly present…

Sorry Finn.

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